WE BROKE UP AND I MADE IT THROUGH THE YEAR!!!
Next rock - all the lovely amazing supportive comments from all the lovely bloggers out there. You are all ace.
Next rock - all the lovely thankyous off the parents and children I work with. And it doesn't have to be a thing - just the word and a smile is more than enough, just to know you are appreciated.
Now, I am a great believer that if you are just nice to people, people will be nice to you. And if you try to live a good life and do the right thing, the right thing will happen to you. It doesn't always seem to work like that unfortunately. But this week, it has. I have just been nice to people (like I always am - it infuriates DH because he thinks I am 'soft' and a pushover!) and they have done nice things for me.
It doesn't always work. This has been quite a challenging year where it really hasn't worked much at all. However, since I have made the changes I have made, things have started to be more positive in return. I have just made a huge, huge change that has been really hard to make but which I have had to make to get that whole work/life/balance/sanity thing back under control. It is slow but I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. There is no triumphant, earth shattering rock at the moment, but I know that if I just carry on being nice and fair and pleasant, I will get back that positivity that I give out, because I am now on the right track for me. I have maintained my dignity and realised I am ready to move on - and that awareness is a rock for me.
Another positive, DS2 has been identified as dyslexic and I now know exactly what his areas of need are and what I need to do to help him make progress and deal with his issues. Another positive, as a result of the assessments, we have found out that he has exceptional skill in art, design and technology. For him to hear he has these exceptional strengths was brilliant. And just to know that his iq is fine and normal and great and it is purely his visual perceptual skills, visual memory and visual sequential memory that cause him a problem was a bonus. And now we know what to do to help him develop these skills further.
And DS1 seems to be a lot more mature these days - still very Kevin and Perry lol - but much more mature relating to school and work and future. Little boy growing up I think.
More rocks... shared a home for 20 years last Saturday, married for 18 years last Monday. Still no Disneyland booking and I will never get a Pandora bracelet but I am resigned to that now I think!
So, life is not a bed of roses as they say. There are still a lot of thorns and there is still quite a bit of manure fertilizing the base of the bush. But, the thorns keep the real nasties away and the manure helps us grow strong and healthy, so maybe it is ok. Just a quiet rocking post this week. Feeling very reflective generally and ready to move on to different things. I am glad you are all with me on my journey. jenx